all fall down ~mark nepo

Lead us from the real to the unreal.

~Hindu invocation

It was a snowy night, and Robert was recalling the time two springs ago when he was determined to paint the family room. Up early, he was out the door, to the hardware store gathering the gallons of red, the wooden mixing sticks, the drop cloths, and the one-time brushes that always harden, no matter what you soak them in.

He mixed the paint outside and waddled to the door with a gallon in each hand, the drop cloth under his arm, and a wide brush in his mouth. He began to chuckle in telling what happened, “I teetered there for minutes, trying to open the door, not wanting to put anything down. I was so stubborn. I had the door almost open when I lost my grip, stumbled backward, and would up on the ground, red gallons all over me.”

At this point, he laughed at himself, as he has done many times, and we watched the snow fall in silence. I though of his little story the whole way home. Amazingly, we all do this, whether with groceries or paint or with the stories we feel determined to share. We do this with our love, with our sense of truth, even with our pain. It’s such a simple thing, but in a moment of ego we refuse to put down what we carry in order to open the door. Time and time again, we are offered the chance to truly learn this: We cannot hold on to things and enter. We must put down what we carry, open the door, and then take up only what we need to bring inside.

It is a basic human sequence: gather, prepare, put down, enter. But failing as we do, we always have that second chance: to learn how to fall, get up, and laugh.

  • Meditate on some threshold you are having trouble crossing in your life. It might be at work, at home, in a relationship, or the doorway to greater peace.
  • Breathe steadily and look to yourself to see if you are carrying too much to open the door.
  • Breathe slowly and with each out-breath put the things you are carrying down.
  • Breathe freely now and open the door.

~Mark Nepo, The Book of Awakening

3 thoughts on “all fall down ~mark nepo

  1. Reblogged this on pathwriter and commented:

    pathwriter’s note: I read Mark Nepo’s Book of Awakening each morning, and today’s reading (which I first posted last January 2nd) fits so well the place I’ve come to in the last few days. I’ve “put down” a pretty big thing that I’ve been carrying and I’m finally ready to walk through a door that I’ve been standing in front of for a long time. I don’t know how it’s all going to unfold, but just having made the decision has lifted a huge weight from my shoulders. I wish for you a happy, expansive 2013…here’s to putting down the things we need to let go of so that we can move forward.

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